the girl,

the teenage girl

the words,

ramblings of the teenage girl

after a long time, i'm back.

my last blog post was in june 2012 omg. it's been about six months since i've blogged. well, i've always had the mood to blog but then i was always too lazy to switch on the computer and to type out what's been on my mind. well, today, i tell myself, no more being lazy!

so here's the blog post of what has happened in my life recently!

- SPM!
yeah, SPM is over. this also means that my secondary school life is over. no more waking up early in the morning and struggling to get over my drowsiness. no more wearing that same school uniform. no more feeling sleepy in class and almost dozing off when the teacher is teaching. no more listening to the discipline's teacher daily 'nagging'. this also means that there'll be no more meeting up with friends everyday. no more talking and playing to them while the teacher's teaching. no more skipping class and hiding in the edboard room just to watch 'how i met your mother'. no more chatting with each other daily in the dewan. no more having pj classes. no more having the whole class celebrating your birthday with you together. no more going out with my friends right after school. no more having 5sc2 around me anymore.
well, this is a phase of life that everyone has to go through, me included. sometimes we wish to be excluded from growing up, but guess what. we can't choose. it isn't in our power. when we were still a kid, we can't help but wish to grow up fast, but when we grow up, we slowly comprehend the meaning of growing up and also the responsibilities that come with it. as the responsibilities build on our shoulders, we try to sway them away, to escape from what the people and society mean for us to do, but we can't. we have to accept the fact that we've grown up. to accept that fact that we have responsibilities now.
growing up is not a choice, it's something that everyone have to go through. but just because we can't choose, it doesn't mean that we'll have to rebel against the nature of growing up. it doesn't mean that we'll have to push away the responsibilities and forever acting the way we like, acting like a kid. we must learn to accept it, and to know that we're not kids anymore. we may be kids at heart, but then we still must know the limits. we must know when to act responsibly and when to act seriously.

- KPOP.
i've never imagined something that i've repelled against for quite some time could be the thing that i find comfort in now.
when i first heard of this kpop thingy, i thought, 'wtf is this? sure some trend that'll die soon. only lalas like kpop' but then, now i'm quite a fan of kpop! haha this is seriously a change i never expected in my life. not to say that kpop has changed my life or so but from this i've learnt to not judge a person just based on what they like...
it all started with bigbang! in the beginning, i only had eyes for bigbang and ignored all other groups. but then as time went on, i found super junior, beast, 2ne1, girls' generation, k.will, ft island, epic high etc. hehe. not to mention the large amount of k-variety shows. omg seriously those k-variety shows are so damn funny, especially the ones that feature the idols i like :P
i've also learnt that we can't possibly judge the life of the idols. for example, my guy friends like to label all the kpop boy groups as 'gay' just because they have the same hairstyle and same singing style. *btw, for some very good reason, all my guy friends like bigbang and they never talk bad about bigbang, so for that i'm very glad! i think i cannot bear to hear them talk bad about bigbang! i would go crazyyy!!!!* excuse me, what about that makes them gay? some singers in america and british have the same singing style and hairstyle too, but does that make them gay? my guy friends would of course have a resolutely 'no' as the answer to this question. so, how is this fair to the korean counterpart of pop? another thing i've learnt from watching idol videos, is that they work really hard to earn their keep. most of them come from poor families, and work their way to the top and conquer the world ;) they work really hard and some even trained for 10 years plus before debuting. even after debut they need to work hard to constantly satisfy their fans. they need to stay true to themselves and at the same time, they need to be what their fans want them to be. how is that easy? they work their asses off trying to reach their dream and still they get hate from people who know nothing about them and only judge them by their appearances. even if you do not like them, do not label them as 'faggot', 'gay', 'dick' or whatever offensive word. you do not even know them therefore you do not have the rights to judge them.

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my recent obsession, BIGBANG!

my first brush with BIGBANG was when my youngest sis, biwen, showed me a few videos of them. the videos were of variety shows and parodies and interviews. THOSE WERE SO FUNNY that i was instantly wowed over by them hehehehhee. the first member that i fell in love with was TOP.

his eyes, OMG. they were like, compelling me to fall in love with him!
his voice is also so so so deep and so SEXAAAYYYYY!

they are funny to watch too! always make my day when i watch them :)

SEUNGRI:



SEUNGRI AND T.O.P.:




i remember i used to feel that people that like kpop is shallow lol. but after i fell in love with BIGBANG, i found out that this is not the matter ;) their music is really GREAT, and you can be easily hooked onto them.




my fave songs of theirs:

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:)

wish that adamlambert would release his new album NOW.
never close our eyes, IS SOOO NICE.
looking forward to his new album!!!


BTW, T.O.P. is so shuai <3






redeemed free starbucks frappucino today on earth hour hehe :)

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first exam of the year down!

but, there is still the final challenge, spm.



wobuyaoooooooooooooo.





can't believe that i have no time to update my blog at all for one whole month plus plus.
i wanted to update my blog for the avril lavigne concert, but the day after next from the concert was the starting of my exam, so no time :(


so just a random post here :)

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happy chinese new year guys!

its a dragon year! wish everyone all the best :)

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happy new year guys! first blogpost for 2012!

it's gonna be a short one, just felt like wishing everyone happy new year hehe.


*i like that above pic as it is SOOOOOOOOO green! *winks*  ;)

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thoughts are constantly running wild in my head, attempting to plant itself in the crevices of my mind. as more and more thoughts cloud around my mind, i realize that i need someplace to release it all! so here it is, all my thoughts for this year, 2011.

2011 was a year where i grew up very much mentally. by that, i mean the way that i think have certainly matured.

there's no right or wrong.
if you just see things from another perspective, what you have previously viewed as 'wrong' will surprisingly feel 'right' now.
for example: a guy is having a crush on a girl. but the girl doesn't likes him. and so, the girl rejects him by saying that she has a boyfriend but when actually she does not. from the girl's point of view, she feels that what she does is right as she does this so to avoid conflict with the guy. she just wants him to get over her and she is not even showing interest. but when the guy finds out, he will be hurt and feels that what she did was wrong. he will feel that she intentionally hurt him and will just detest her for it.
it really just depends on how you view it. there are always a few ways to see things, not only as 'right' or 'wrong'. there's a grey line in between because the world is not made up of just black and white. there are colours in between.
so, stop viewing things as 'right' or 'wrong' as there is no right or wrong in this world, there is only a matter of perspective.


be yourself.
why let someone else rule your life? they don't like they way you live, fine. why let criticisms rule your life? just because someone commented that the way you walk/talk/gesture/*insert any word here* is annoying/wrong/yucky/blabla, doesn't mean you should change for them. just because they think so do not mean the whole world has the same opinion. if you certainly don't think that whatever they say is right, so just ignore them. why care over what they have said and wallow in sadness for days because someone said something that sounded as an afterthought and like they didn't give a damn when they said it.
but sometimes, a person may say to himself, why must i care of what others say of me? i am me. why should i change for the benefit of others? yeah, true. you are you. you shouldn't change for others. but at the same time, if you're the one at fault, if you're the one with the problem, maybe what others are worth taking time to think of. it matters not because of them, but because of yourself. you should not change for them, you should change for the sake of yourself. to be a better person and show all your detractors that they are wrong.
'baby you're born this way.'

appreciate your loved one.
it's not that you take what you have for granted, you just didn't know you'd lose them. i saw this on twitter and thought, how true this is.
you know that you have them by your side, but you just don't show appreciation coz you never know that one day, you would just lose them. you would just go on with live everyday, doing the same old things, never showing thanks, all because you think that they're gonna be there your whole life. so you never really take time to show appreciation. but when you lose them, you would regret it. MUCH. when they're simply not there anymore, when they have walked away, that's when you will regret. but, what's the use? no use crying over spilt milk.
my family has not been one where we hesitate to express our feelings, so you can hear the 'thankyou's and 'iloveyou's *'sorry's are a bit hard to come by as our ego-ness always get the better of us* generously spewed thru our mouths. but oftentimes, we just say them as an afterthought, we just say them as a habit. there are no feelings inside them. so i have learned to fill them with feelings and mean them when i say them. i express them with my sincerity now, so that the people around me can feel it when i express those words.
'you only appreciate someone when they're not by your side anymore.'

people around us are important.
no man is an island. how true this is. despite what many has said, we can't just live on our own. we are inter-connected, each and every one of us on this planet. *maybe even aliens are inter-connected with us lol.*
example: a loner may have no friends, but he must still depend on others to survive. he must depend on the farmer/butcher/???? for food and architect/construction worker/???? for a roof over his head and so on.
'accept the fact that you're surrounded by people, the world is not only made of yourself.'

stop being obstinate.
i've always been an obstinate cow. i was and am trying to change this bad habit of mine but so far, to no avail. when i am being obstinate, i don't even realize it. my mind will just automatically shut out all other possibilities and stuck itself to the one view which i prefer or like. i do this SUBCONSCIOUSLY. it's a trait that i've had since i was a kid. so now i'm trying to change that. i'm trying to accept new views and stop being such a stubborn cow.
on the other hand, sometimes being an obstinate pig helps me make decisions. or else i would be freaking indecisive and constantly change my mind over matters.

life is precious.
do not even think of suicide. you may feel like you have so many problems and that the world is gonna close in on you. but guess what? no matter how gigantic your problems seems to be, there is always someone else in the world with a bigger problem. you may think that breaking up with your girlfriend/boyfriend is like the world ending, but to the kid that has gone thru an earthquake/tornado/tsunami/*inserts natural disaster*, their world has literally fallen apart. they may have lost their siblings or parents. they may not have a family anymore. they will live their live scarred forever. they may not even know what love is and how to love. still think you problems are big?

family matters.
A LOT. just because they have always been there for you doesn't mean that they will always be there in the future. it doesn't mean you can take advantage of their thoughtfulness. doesn't mean you can forget about all they've done for you because they don't mind you forgetting. i know, family will love you no matter what you've done, they'll always be by your side. so sometimes, you forget that they're human too, you forget that they have feelings. so be a bit more considerate to them and treat them better.
'knowing that they'll love you and live with your bad traits, it's all the more reason you should treat them better.'



a lot of people have a purpose in life. well, mine is simple. that is to: enjoy life :)



*2012 will be my last year as a high school student. it will also be the year where i face SPM. come 2013, i'll have gone on another major phase in life, college. therefore, i'll sure as hell enjoy this last year and cherish it as memories. ♥



enjoy 2012!

we all know how to judge others, but how do we know that we wouldn't do the same thing if we were in their shoes?

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going to singapore to visit my relatives is an annual event for me. but this year, it is a bit special as i go there not only to visit them, but as my cousin is gonna get wedded! this time, my whole family went with me!

first day, 16.12.11
left at approx 9am. was feeling super tired as i slept quite late the night before coz of pps' majlis perpisahan. the trip to singapore was smooth, nothing unexpected happened. BUT, due to a wrong turning, we got lost in singapore and we couldn't find the hotel, WTF. fortunately, we did find the hotel coz singapore isn't that big :o it rained heavily and we only emerged from the hotel room for dinner.


second day, 17.12.11
we just walked around the area around the hotel :)

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the talk,

i think they call it freedom of speech

the links,

an escape, away from here

the past,

watch me waste my life away

the maker,

you better thank me

the social network,

facebook

the microblog,

twitter